continue

whilst i read a passage..

a friend messages me, with the spiteful words and pessimistic perspectives. as i stay put and listen - or rather, read what is written, i realize not to reply with what comes up in my head first, unfortunately. due to the hot tempered i, thoughts must be strained and filtered, bringing out the blessing and shaking out the spite.

but it's hard, as well as not being received well, of course. being 3am in the morning - i decided it's not really a time i have the strength, or eloquence to continue the imbalance conversation - though there was never a time restraint to Jesus - my flesh is weak, no matter how willing my heart wants to render her understanding and love.

Jesus didn't really have things easy on him, but always a blessing.
i shall continue to try, as well.