[rhythms] step and stone

these are the steps You bring me through

with each step up i took, i was hoping not to see you.

going with hopes

..but then again, maybe not today.

from a buzz and a phrase

i answered

then questioned

and drifted

then a step and a step
until i see ..a stone
heavy.

back to where i long to leave
so they fell.
droplets

but not for long, as You show me the work of Your hands
the wonders, the joy, the act of creation
followed by surprise and laughter, stun and acknowledgement
short but sweet, reminisce and linger

when grey clouds float, pity became anger
fueled with disappointment and neglect
something from the past, but somehow resurfaced.

maybe that is how it was, how i am.
the jealous me.
the hideous me.
the broken me.

yet You continue to walk with me, talk to me, love the unlovable
but not without a price. the heavy heavy price of your life.
You shower me with grace, but i shake it off like the unwanted, insignificant.

with each step You guide me to
each stone on my heart, the burdens.
You take it out and place it in front of me, so that it becomes a stepping stone
waiting..