once again

and here it is, coming back to haunt.

the uncertainties, the regrets, the fears, the everything

comes rushing back, like a giant wave coming onshore, overflowing in all its capacity

with sand and rocks and debris that have settled

along with new contents floating around, new substance, whether it be trash, or treasure

mixed together, rising high, becoming visible, seemingly overwhelming

and then, like a wave, it retreats back as it nears the shore

once again

it settles, debris and all, back into the depths of stuff

waiting

waiting for the next wave, to uproot it all, once again

leave, left, alone

regret, my fault, my doing

the reminders, the voices, the confusion

the wrong, the thoughts, the unspoken words

好累..

today is one of those days, where things around you seem so full of mystery, full of sorrow, full of unspoken thoughts.

You are the healer, and because of You, I have the strength to go on.

Malachi 4:2