2 years

and I still remember the crazy you.

來得及

不要浪費時間

今天開始也可以

雖然晚了一點

但也來得及。

- mom

As I hear these words, and many more insights from my mother, I can't help but have tears streaming down my face.

What I am longing to hear...is heard.

If only...? But no matter, this is grace from Him.

And it takes my world for a spin.

.

there is this point

this breaking point

where things reveal

reveal to one's dismay

and that's the point

the breaking point.

Can You hear me?

[rhythms] we may

love....1John 4:19

John 13:34

..Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.

Because He loved, I am able to love.

Thank You, but please give me strength and faith to do so.

Thank You for showing me, for opening my eyes -

and I pray,

that she may be heard,

that I may be heard,

that she may love,

that I may love.

Thank You for softening my heart,

and now I pray for perseverance, and that You may break my heart for what breaks Yours.

[rhythms] doodleedoo~

doodleedoo~

"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion?
Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life.
I'll show you how to take a real rest.
Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it.
Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.
I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you.
Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

I am tired, worn and burned out. But I know I must turn to You, for Your strength, not my own.

~twenty-one~

weird countdown, isn't it?

numbers don't seem to flow...but oh well ><

i am thankful for you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &you, &YOU.

thank you for being the best laogong ever, one who knows me too well and burst into silly songs with me. one who listens and loves, understands.

thank you for being a beautiful tai, always a wonderful mystery in my head as to what you are thinking, and for giving me your first cake. it means so much to me, truly.

thank you for your kindness and love, your beautiful voice and a heart of gold. i missed the random meet-ups with take-out and chatting haha. and your strong faith in Him is always a great reminder.

thank you for your electric eyes, for your contagious heart, and your love for the people. seeing your love for Him gives me a boost of strength always. and i hold on tighter.

thank you for your sweet smile and silliness baobeiiii. your laughter and gentle heart are what melts mine, and thank God for letting us meet one sunny, beautiful day in HK.

thank you for being an impatient bully .v. but really, thank you for... the tour in HK, making that a very memorable time. for your patience and your influence...not really xP. you're a smart one.

three squared

and it goes on.

life, full of surprises, obstacles, adventures.

9 days into the new year

9 days left until another year

older

and what have i done

the past 12 months

for You?

i walked.

walked with others

walked alone

walked on

walked backwards.

stood still.

may these last few days of being 20 help me become what i need to become.

may these next few days give me strength to take on what will come.

元旦 :)

Quiet heart.

Thank You for this quiet heart, for being with me, for guarding my heart.

一月一號 元旦 :)

The sounds that once filled the cluttered space that is temporarily mine, has left with their producer - leaving the echoes of laughter, music, and warmth.

Suddenly it feels cold.

Yet I know that the feeling of warmth remaining in my heart will not cease, due to the joy of Him in my life, so I guess I will overcome this temporary chill.

Last hours of 2011, spent with dear brothers and sisters, has been a beautiful closing scene to this act.

As we get together to chat, to celebrate the wrap-up of one year and the opening of another, renders my heart a new joy, a new hope.

With this following act ready to begin, I pray that the development of the main character in my particular play will continue, becoming one with love abound in knowledge and having a child-like faith in our Father.

I shall sleep with a silly smile all night :)

Another 美好的回憶。 ♡

thoughts

discernment in what I hear, what I observe, what I learn.

packed schedule. ottawa, retreat. rest, work, rest.

ending of this year, 感想. 感谢.

G.E.M

SHOOO MUCH FUNNNNN!!

今日超級開心＆勁好玩

Yaayyy! First official concert! And it was G.E.M's concert at Hershey Centre in Mississauga. Thanks to wonderful friends who drove and got us tix, Tai&I were able to enjoy a wonderful show by a talented young singer :)

This pretty pic is taken by Tai♡

^^ We sat in the 'floor' area so we got wristbands! yay!

So the night started out with transportation to STC, then waiting for the guys to get candy haha We then start out our journey to the Hershey Centre! Yumm! haha and I found out that they do sell hershey candy at the hershey centre, though I didn't take a pic ><

Anyhow, before going in, we grab a couple of things - i.e food, gifts, light thingys to wave around xD - then we sit and see a couple more familiar looking people from church! Turns out nearly the whole row (about 8 seats) were bought by acquaintances haha sweeeeet!

The arena wasn't really full in the end tho, the major areas that can see her are filled, but a lot of the side ones weren't, but oh well, people missed out!

So it starts! And I try to take pics...tho security was pretty tight, they went to everyone who held up something like looks slightly similar to a recording device. A little annoying, but fine >.<

Her voice is crazyyyyy good! So strong and controlled, shoo aweshummmmm :) amazing performances by her tonight, memorable ones being You Raise Me Up, 情人，The Voice Within....actually they were all shooooo gooooooood xD The dancers were amazing too! And the place was so cold! We were sitting above a rink, and because we were in the middle section, we were basically on the ice, except with wooden boards between us -.- But it was still very enjoyable hehe

Then the night goes on. She performed 'You raise me up' with a very 感人的故事. It was a story regarding her family, her grandma specifically, and it was beautiful - full of memories, hopes, and lessons.

At the end, when she came out for the encore performance, she invited the floor people to go up, and she even came closer. I got to see her up close and she's really tiny lol but nice skin :)

haha sounds like i'm a crazy fan, no, i'm not, just this once :D

Anyhow, wonderful night with wonderful people :)

Mini Pecan Tarts♡

Rejoice, Always Rejoice

19 brothers and sisters declared their faith in the name of Our Lord! 

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Mini Pecan Tarts~

Yummy mini tarts that can be eaten alone with ice cream ^-^

Ingredients:

• 1 cup butter
• 8 ounces cream cheese, softened
• 2 cups all-purpose flour
• 4 eggs
• 3 cups packed brown sugar
• 4 tbsp melted butter
• 1 pinch salt
• 1 tsp vanilla extract
• 1 cup chopped pecans

Directions:

1. Pastry: Cream butter/margarine and cream cheese.
   Add in flour and mix well.
2. Filling: break the eggs in a large bowl, do not beat.
   Add in brown sugar, melted butter, salt, vanilla extract, and pecans.
   Mix well.
3. Make pie shells by taking out small chunks of the pastry and flatten it out, making a pie shells sort of shape. Place into mini cupcake tin.
4. Fill the shells with pecan mixture.
5. Bake at 350 degrees F (180 degrees C) for ~ 30 minutes / until delicately browned.

Enjoy while it's hot! ^-^

heavy heart. sinking deeper with each step i take, bringing me closer to

but i want to be far, far away.

i wonder, will you realize if i..

far away i go, into the depths of my heart, His will, the love that brings us through.

stepping on blurry lines..

seeking

Paris for a year while working/taking class(pastry/culture/language).

Shadow/teach a year overseas.

Ottawa for school? Involve in campus outreach.

Working in NGO.

So much stuff I want to do. Big ideas. Looking to the future.

Yet, here I am, idle. Why? What is it that I'm doing? Please help me. Please, Father, guide me.

wellspring

Guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Father, how might I do so?

question

alone.

do you get it?