heavy heart. sinking deeper with each step i take, bringing me closer to

but i want to be far, far away.

i wonder, will you realize if i..

far away i go, into the depths of my heart, His will, the love that brings us through.

stepping on blurry lines..

seeking

Paris for a year while working/taking class(pastry/culture/language).

Shadow/teach a year overseas.

Ottawa for school? Involve in campus outreach.

Working in NGO.

So much stuff I want to do. Big ideas. Looking to the future.

Yet, here I am, idle. Why? What is it that I'm doing? Please help me. Please, Father, guide me.

wellspring

Guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Father, how might I do so?

question

alone.

do you get it?

lest i forget..

Remember.

Remembering. Rememberance.

I remember that time, those times, and then there is this time.